As a multipassionate person/multipotentialite, one of my main challenges is that I want to do ALL THE THINGS. And sometimes I don’t know what to focus on. Where to start. And then I feel like I’m ‘wasting precious time’.
I get restless. And in my restlessness, I just bumble around seemingly aimlessly, trying to avoid actually feeling the unease, which results in being very busy but not accomplishing much of anything (how frustrating).
I could say that I procrastinate.
But what if procrastination is not real?
What if it’s bogus? Untrue? Made up?
What if procrastination is just a construct that keeps us small? That keeps us stuck in failure; in not being good enough, brave enough, outspoken enough, productive enough, dedicated enough, educated enough, organised enough…
What if procrastination is just self-judgement in disguise?
We think it’s this powerful tool for motivating ourselves to ‘do better’ or ‘be better’ – but often it’s just a weapon we use to beat ourselves up with instead.
What if procrastination really means:
- We’re not ready.
- This thing we want to do or create is not the right thing.
- This thing we want to do or create is not ready.
But what if we know we ARE ready?
What if we’re sure this thing we want to create IS ready?
What if we feel it IS the right thing?
Then maybe we’re playing small. Maybe we’re afraid to be seen. “Who do I think I am to do this; to say this; to create this?”
So, how do we recognise the truth? OUR truth?
The question I ask myself is: Does it feel expansive or contracting?
The answer (our truth) is subtle. It’s gentle. It’s quiet. A whisper that gets louder as we veer off our path further.
There’s no one formula. No special blueprint. No 5 step system. Just OUR process.
There’s always a reason we don’t act. So rather than judge ourselves for being lazy or unfocused or not making enough progress… what if we accepted that something may need integrating, releasing or healing first?
What if we could hold and make peace with these opposites?
- I know enough, AND I am eager to learn more.
- I do enough, AND there is so much more to experience.
- I am enough, AND I am becoming more. More ME.
What it comes down to is trust. Trusting that we ARE powerful creators. Trusting our process, and honouring it. And trusting in the right timing.
So how do we learn to trust ourselves more?
By pausing rather than pushing.
By being curious rather than critical.
By holding ourselves through (perceived) failures.
By bravely taking small steps.
By embracing our innate worthiness.
And by accepting that wanting to do All The Things is a part of being a multipassionate person/multipotentialite, and we don’t need to explain or apologise for that – which not everyone will understand (and that’s ok, too).
Maybe by bumbling around or distracting ourselves, our subconscious mind is integrating things so we can take that next step with more certainty.
Maybe by waiting, we’ll uncover an important piece of the puzzle that will allow us to move forward with more clarity.
Maybe trying things and finding they don’t work isn’t failure; it’s just information – and we experience so much richness on this journey of taking aligned action, adapting, and trying something new.
It’s ok to not be ready.
It’s ok to allow ourselves to rest.
And maybe by letting all of this be present with love rather than judgement, we can slowly and gently build more trust in our inner compass; our inner guidance.